"To much information" is something we would say when we are given graphic details that cause our thoughts to form mental images we would just as soon not envision. I had one of those moments tonight. No one was telling anything that was crude, off-color or gross. But at the same time it felt like we cheated in life to see what our future may hold.
I know many of our friends who read my blog already know my husband (Kevin) has Parkinson's. But there may be a few who don't know yet. Last summer he was finally diagnosed but it has been an uninvited guest in our lives since 2001. It was a blessing and relief to know what it was......to finally give it a name. We praise the Lord the medicines they started him on has been a big help.
Tonight we went out on church visitation. Recently we have been splitting off with another couple. Kevin happened to get home before me tonight. By the time I got home he was watching "Saving Millie" on YouTube. It's a true story on Millie's life and being diagnosed with Parkinson's Plus which is very fast in its progression. Kevin's Parkinson's is slow progressing.
I don't really care to see movies that show the decline of the body as the disease progresses......it's just hitting to close to home. And it feels like a glimpse into the future for what may be in store for us many years down the line. I watched it though because Kevin wanted to see it for some time now since he read the book. I would rather live the day.........day by day and moment by moment........living by faith, trusting in God. I would rather not know what tomorrow could hold.....I don't want to think about how this disease will steal my husband away bit by bit. "Saving Millie" is a good movie just more information that I wanted. And now I have this song in my head.........
"I don't know about tomorrow; I just live from day to day. I don't borrow from its sunshine For its skies may turn to grey. I don't worry o'er the future, For I know what Jesus said. And today I'll walk beside Him, For He knows what is ahead.
Many things about tomorrow I don't seem to understand But I know who holds tomorrow And I know who holds my hand......."
Many things about tomorrow I don't seem to understand But I know who holds tomorrow And I know who holds my hand......."
It's strange how the peace of God will keep your heart and mind in Christ Jesus. I didn't cry with the sadness of the movie's ending. Neither am I crying now as I post this blog entry. I will continue to live the day.....day by day and moment by moment......living by faith, trusting in God............
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